feelings for today

I feel disoriented. If I were a color I would be a burnt color, like the color of the back of my eyelids when I close my eyes and face the sun. And that's how I feel...like I am facing the sun with my eyes closed. I don't want to move any more. I don't want to go anywhere. I just want to breathe and let myself be bathed in warmth. I have this desire to be wrapped up tight, to be secure, to know that I'm doing okay, that my life is okay, that my dreams are okay. I want someone to tell me what to do, and then to take my hand and walk with me...just walk with me in the sunshine.

1 comment:

mtnmama said...

kiddo - i KNOW the feelin'... what works for me is to stop 'wanting', when you stop focusing on what you want, what you want comes... hugs tonight. i'm sleepy and wine is doin' it's thing... love ya munchkin.